Me and my better half are busy working parents and when we end up talking, it is usually to discuss chores, or timelines or stuff about boys or rarely office. It seems as if the time has just drowned in the din of the day. He is currently away on a work trip. And I miss him. 😢
Who else misses spirited conversations or few nice genuine people to interact with. Or is it just me!
Don’t get me wrong. I am not a party person or someone who enjoys going out and dressing up for it! I am supremely lazy for that chore! Nevertheless I do enjoy having meaningful relaxing conversations.
I do realize that- it is wrong. One must be happy and content with what you have on the inside. But that is one luxury that I really wish for. Once you grow up and change cities, it becomes really hard to find and make friends again. I am in touch with my college besties, but now that we all are busy mothers with working lives, it is really a task to just stay in touch.
I have a difficult time just nodding endlessly to same material based conversations that one comes across at workplace, parties, parks or gym. I sigh inwards and put a pretend smile outwards.
I am not saying that I am very bright for everyone around me. Rather, it is just the opposite. I am pretty dumb regarding most basic things in life. For instance, I am not very good or adventurous in cooking. My home decor skills are nonexistential. My makeup skills are negative. I have zero interest in property, car or discussing or worrying about children’s future. I am not very good at conflict resolution. Gossips disgust me. My small talks are screwed!
When you invite clown into your home/ palace, he doesn’t become the king. Your home becomes the circus. So be careful, whom you invite into home.Anonymous
I find looking at scenery much more fascinating. A blooming red jaba flower plant in an overgrown garden, a kind looking dog, an old peepal tree trunk with its magnificent branches reaching up to the sky, sweet roses with thorns, green fresh trees against the dark grey sky, some birds flying nowhere.
I sort of live with the philosophy of God determining all my actions. Sometimes, although very rarely, terrible things do happen so that I may learn a valuable lesson. It is all a part of his plan. I just need to give my best every day.
The warmth of summer is sweetened by the bitter cold of winter.
Que Sara Sara Whatever will be will be, the future is not for us to see.
I wait for my boys to leave for school and enjoy my coffee with a book by my side. And that solitude is serene and so perfect. But sometimes, just sometimes I wish to chat with someone who enjoys the same things that I do. I miss that someone who can understand your silence.
P.S. – My husband has gone away for a work trip. Dear husband, I miss you. Please come back soon.
2 thoughts on “Candid Conversations”
Dear Amrita, how I wish I was living closer rather than on the other side of the world as we would be good friends. We share so many likes and interests, and as I studied medicine and come from a medical family there are many fascinating inventions that we would talk about.
I admire your beautifully expressed love for your husband.
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Dearest Joanna you are really sweet. And I already feel like having you as an understanding and informative friend from across the seas. God bless you always.